Happy New Year

I have been given confirmation that this coming year of 2007 will indeed be a year to be remembered.
Six months ago I read an ad in the classifieds that offered a condo with panaramic view of the beach, the marsh and the ICWW. I was instantly drawn to call about the place I knew in my heart was to be mine for the next six months. My dream began in August and will end supposedly unless God intervenes in March. Tonight begins the New Year and the panaramic view truley was a treat and affirmably my gift from God. As I stood on my front deck I watched as fireworks were making a beautiful display on the beach and as far away as Wilmington and Wrightsville Beach, of which I have a clear view. All night the party has been displayed within my view. My back deck affords the view of the fireworks from the Boardwalk and Harbor. How beautiful it was, and how safe I felt as I watched from my dark secluded perch in the sky.
The weather man has foretold bad weather approaching from the west and indeed I felt sprinkles as I left work late this afternoon. My usual walk on the beach was lit by the lights on the pier. People that appeared as shadows began to join me at the seashore. The sky was dark as had the past few years been with the looming of impending death clouded my mind. I know in my heart that my days are numbered by God and the end of them has been heavy on my heart as of late. As I looked around through the darkness at the lives that were moving in search of the hope that a new year might offer, I wondered at the sight. Fifty eight years now seems like it was lived in the dark waiting for the hope of the new year.
I walked back to my palace that is to others a one bedroom condo. The quietness enhanced the sound of the few fireworks that came from the beach.
I went to bed and dozed for I know not how long. When I woke the sounds of the New Year were echoing throughout Carolina Beach. I moved to the back deck and was able to watch the light show from North East and West. It was pretty as the colors burst in the air. I thought of our men and women over seas ushering the new year in with a light show quite different than our own. Then it became quiet again; My children were heavy on my heart. What were they doing on this night of new beginnings? As I stood in the comfort of the cool night air, the moon made a glorious appearance through the clouds that were formed around it like the white of the eye around the pupil. It was as though the eye of God looked upon me and the brightness of the moon and it's surrounding cloud overcame the meager display of man's fireworks. Man will never be able to out-perform God. As I remained frozen gazing into His eye the stars came forth to shower the sky as the fireworks had earlier; only they do not fade away.
This night was for me. This night my Lord spoke to me from His Heavens and told me of a new year, a new day, a new path. This year will belong to my son. I will see my son. He has been the one that has lain in the background, denied the presence of his mother for all these years. But no more. He has asked nothing of me, required nothing of me; yet I know he needs me more now than ever. And this will be the year that I will be his. I will live this new year as though it were my last, whether it be so or not. I love my girls, but they have had me close their entire lives and thus take that closeness forgranted. He has been without me and I without him; each moment will be precious. I am anxiouse to begin this new year of our Lord, 2007.
May God be with us all and His will be done on earth as it is in Heaven.